Wednesday, December 10

A Year Lost in Transition

There have been lots of days in this year where i have sat down, thought about lots of things from my career to my travel fantasies to my life after MBA to my photography as to where it is heading. The year got lost somewhere in between all this. Its already 10 days into the last month of the year and i wake up now and Check where was i lost. There are absolutely 1000s of reasons for which i can hate and have to forget this year. It was 300 days of rubbish and cribbing. The rest 45 days till now have kept me moving.

It has been more than a year i have posted a photo on my photo blog. I don't want to kill it... I sit and shed tears whenever i see that, but other than that i haven't done anything productive to kick start it again. It was a thing that kept me motivated and moving at one point and now i have been so busy searching my life that i have lost most of the valuable moments in life. Now I have broken my Camera. The most priced possession i had and all i have now is a pile of rubble (Exaggerating).

I loved to write and i did so somewhere or the other either in one of my earlier blogs or in a diary. The last time i picked up the dairy was to crib about something and the blog has been a perfect partner for my birthday posts. It all started when i saw everyone bliogging. I thought it was cool. I started. It helped me a lot and now again i lost it somewhere in transition.

I also loved traveling. I want to travel all my life's savings. But I haven't made any attempt in that direction.

Seeing all this, I feel Disgusted about myself. I feel like a wannabe. This is probably because there are too many souls now a days who are suddenly in love with photography and who want to travel. I fear that people might think i am another amateur.

This year has personified the feeling a lot more. I have done a lot of things in this year, but when i look back at it, its all blur and blank. I see nothing substantial.

If at all there was a book of my life, 2014 would be 300 pages of blank sheets. Nothing written or something illegible scribbled.

I have made enough resolutions, I have moved on from the fact that i have to make resolutions to achieve something.

2014 GET LOST..

Friday, October 24

Twenty Five..

This is the fourth year in a row I have been dutifully writing birthday posts and I start exactly at the same time. Its around 11:30 at night when everyone else is asleep and you wait for the clock to strike twelve so that you can say you are officially an year old now.

So Its been 25 years and now i can put down my cribs as my Quarter Life Crisis.

This is the time I take a recap of the year that has passed. 2014 has not been the greatest year. Not that a lot has gone bad but nothing has been outstanding. College has been monotonous and same. Only now there is some excitement planned. My life has taken a turn for good. I am pretty sure the next and the coming years are going to be different and good. (Details later). As I had no much expectations of the year, it lived up to it and was bland (barring a few mind boggling instances)

The most saddest part of the year was in the last month when I broke my camera. It has been a priced possession and i sank that day like never before. I am still kicking myself for it. Hard times for the photographer in me. :(

New year!! New Hopes! New Desires!!! Hope everything goes very well and things in my mind take a rest for good.

Happy 25th to me!!!

I have planned to close down this blog and start writing on Tumblr (if you are really interested:  http://www.memoriesandmegapixels.tumblr.com/)

Tuesday, August 19

Just for a day

Just for a day.. I want to stop worrying... I don't want to think about the day to come..
Just for a day I don't want to get up and feel sleepy again.
Just for a day I don't want to crib about the traffic that haunts me early morning.
Just for a day.. I want yo stop worrying about impending assignments.
Just for a day I want to be free from boring lectures..
Just for a day I want to stop thinking about how to get back home without swearing at the traffic..
Just for a day I want to be free from all the petty issues with my phone..
Just for a day I want to stop the feeling of a rat race
Just for a day I want to stop running so that I can catch my breath
Just for a day I want to sit and talk to everyone I love...
Just for a day I want a break desperately
Just for a day I want a Sunday in the middle of a week.