A rainy evening, by the window sill, sipping a cup of hot
freshly brewed coffee, I sit, enjoy the smell of the rains and the coffee and I
feel relaxed...
I feel I’m more
relaxed than before. It has been a week after u said goodbye to me, you stopped
talking to me, and you said you had other priorities in life while you were the
only priority in my life. I never thought I would be so free after all this. It
has changed me as a person; it has made me stronger, and u have helped me learn
some of the most important life lessons in life.
But sometimes when I think of the relationship we had in the
past one year, I felt nothing was wrong then, I felt my life was the most
happiest, I had someone to care for me; I knew the feeling of love, care. Then
it was just you, me and nothing else. I
felt you were the best person born on this earth and we were destined to meet. You
changed my life altogether... I was to the face while talking before I met you,
but that changed, when I knew that you laughed at my silly jokes just because I
was sensitive and didn’t want to hurt me. I never believed in myself before,
but the pep talks you gave me, or the shoulder you lend me when I’m down have
made me a confident person now. When I
held your hand when we walked, I just wanted to tell that I would be there with
you always...
And again when I think of it now, you never shared anything
with me, when you were down. I never had an opportunity to show that I cared
for you. I always felt it was one way traffic. I never got to know about your
hidden feelings. And I never asked you why. But it was shocking to know that you
never trusted me. Isn’t trust the basic foundation of any relationship?
When you didn’t want to tell about us with our friends, it
was the hardest thing to maintain that we were just friends with them. When
they got to know the fact, it killed the trust they had in me but I didn’t mind
because you were still with me. But what is wrong if others come to know about
it?? Falling in Love with a friend is not a crime. Or is it?
Lately, you had a say in every decision of mine, but the
funny thing was I never featured in the decisions I had to take. It always
happened the way you wanted it. But even then I didn’t mind, coz a relationship
is where you respect others decisions. But
did you respect mine??
And finally a week back, when you said you had other
priorities in life and weren’t ready for a relationship, I was shocked... I
didn’t know what to do for days. I thought this was the end, my life had no
meaning..
Slowly I realised, Life is an amazing equalizer... I was the
happiest person sometime ago, but it all has to come to an end, and when you feel
that that all the happiness has been lost...
This morning, when I received a message saying, “let’s get
back together”, I switched off my mobile, grabbed a cup of coffee, enjoying the
evening rains sat by the Window sill, I felt relaxed...
